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Monday, August 9, 2010 @ 3:45 PM
Yes I'm an idiot and feeling like one.
Hopefully nobody will be reading this. I just wanna let it out some privacy stuff here D:
I don't know why. WHY i'm like a biatch falling for a guy who is already attached. The feeling in me just goes like wanting to see him or talk to him or anything. As i just woke up this morning, an image of him straight goes to my mind, so I quickly get up and on Facebook :D. But nothing .. Nevermind :D.
It's just so stupid to feel this way. I don't want to forget him either. Afraid that I will not see him anymore because he lives really far away. and this is just a crush! Probably we will only meet once in a life time and being together in a group for once in a life time too.
Doo-doo-doo, i'm so stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid. NEVER expect anything would happen. And Im also not sure why i like this guy? It's the first time I like a guy when I'm already in a relationship. I dont want to let him or any other ppl too knowing that im already with someone else. Because, it's a bad relationship and I wanna be with someone else who treats me better than the current one.
One thing for sure that I really like his hairstyle a LOT :D. So, am i in love with his hairstyle or him? Hahahah. Come on, this is really stupid PeiYing. I dont even want to know why I have a crush on him and I dont want to care about this anymore ! The more I think what and why, the deeper the crush I have for him.
Okay forget everything. Erase, erase, erase except him as a good and cool new friend.
Gosh, if anyone's reading this now, this whole post might just change your perception towards me and thinking i'm a freak and biatch. Sorry. I just wanna express it here. There's nowhere else. And yeah, i don't even dare to tell my best friends.
Hopefully nobody will be reading this. I just wanna let it out some privacy stuff here D:
I don't know why. WHY i'm like a biatch falling for a guy who is already attached. The feeling in me just goes like wanting to see him or talk to him or anything. As i just woke up this morning, an image of him straight goes to my mind, so I quickly get up and on Facebook :D. But nothing .. Nevermind :D.
It's just so stupid to feel this way. I don't want to forget him either. Afraid that I will not see him anymore because he lives really far away. and this is just a crush! Probably we will only meet once in a life time and being together in a group for once in a life time too.
My fingers go really cold when I talk to him and heart beats really fast. Wanted to see him in eyes but afraid as I talk to group members. Like making eye contacts to all group members but him, i fail. I don't even dare to call out his name. I also dont know why. Just shy perhaps. So I just called him "XXXX..." as though im whispering then i continued in a normal tone "Hey..". I really wanted to talk to him during the speech because it's boring but seeing him always texting someone else on the phone, just discouraged me to do so. And then finally I saw his handphone wallpaper has a picture of a girl and that immediately breaks everything; the feeling towards him. After the camp is over n because there're so many people in the hall, he waved at me and mouth the words "byebye" and smiled, so I did but quite a distant. I really wanted to say goodbye to him face-to-face and probably a lil chat more but fail. SADD.
Doo-doo-doo, i'm so stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid. NEVER expect anything would happen. And Im also not sure why i like this guy? It's the first time I like a guy when I'm already in a relationship. I dont want to let him or any other ppl too knowing that im already with someone else. Because, it's a bad relationship and I wanna be with someone else who treats me better than the current one.
One thing for sure that I really like his hairstyle a LOT :D. So, am i in love with his hairstyle or him? Hahahah. Come on, this is really stupid PeiYing. I dont even want to know why I have a crush on him and I dont want to care about this anymore ! The more I think what and why, the deeper the crush I have for him.
Okay forget everything. Erase, erase, erase except him as a good and cool new friend.
Gosh, if anyone's reading this now, this whole post might just change your perception towards me and thinking i'm a freak and biatch. Sorry. I just wanna express it here. There's nowhere else. And yeah, i don't even dare to tell my best friends.
Time to continue on my case studies! :(
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